Archive for June, 2006

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Thursday, June 29th, 2006

Is Thursday, 29th June 2006… 1548 hours…

Well… It’s my birthday and wasn’t it an unexpected one… Well, I would like to firstly thanx Wilson and the Form Four and Five Prefects for the special yet unique gift and Wilson… You’re right… No one could have thought of giving me such a present… Haha… Thanx a lot guys…

To my EXCOs… I hope that you like the retirement present which I bought for you… Though it may not be something fancy but I hope that you like it… Let’s see… I had my final meeting after school and when the meeting was over… My Board celebrated my birthday in an unexpected way… And yea… Thanx a lot to Chen Yip, Saleh, Boo and the rest of you guys for the present…

Guess what I got… Durians… Haha… Boon Soon and his geng got me a small teddy bear and Way Hong, Chia Ling and Chee Wei gave me a mug… Thanx a lot guys… Well… Tonight I’m going to celebrate my birthday and also my retirement… Haha…

But seriously… I’m going to miss every single moment when I was the Head Prefect… To all of my prefects… Thanx a lot for your help and support all this while… I salute to every single one of you…

Next week onward, I’ll just be plain old me again…No more attention from the School’s Disciplinary Board and students…

Yes… I’m happy that the burden is finally over but… I’m going to miss it…

And of course… My best wishes to the Prefectorial Board 2006 / 2007… I believe that you guys will be a fantastic board… Good luck…

File # 49

Friday, June 23rd, 2006

Is Friday, 23th of June 2006… 1554 hours…

The new Head Prefect for the year 2006 / 2007 is finally out… Congratulation to Chan Hong who is the head and also to Kuhaendran who is the assistant… Wish both of you the best of luck…

Five more days for me to be the Head Prefect and then is all over… But I don’t get it?… Why must I still suffer even after I’m going to pass it all over… Why must still problems come before I leave… Can’t you let me leave with a good record???…

Why???… Damn this is a sickening question that I always ask and still no answer… Why must you do this to me???… Why must you hurt me???… Why must you play with my feelings???… I’m not as strong as you think I am in school… I just act happy but I hold my tears… Can’t you all let me go in peace???… I don’t get it???… What you want me to do so that you are satisfy???…

I hate it… It’s so baldy annoying… When I have my faith so high… There you will be to pull it down… When I convince myself to do better… There you are to destroy it… Why???… For heaven sake’s… What is it do you want me to do???…

I’m sick… Not that I had fall ill but I’m sick for my heart is so weak… Sometimes I just wish that it will just stop beating… It’s too much for me… I’m going to fall into depression… I hate it…

Damn this faith that I’m having… I don’t know what have I did before to deserve this???… Have I ever jeopardize anyone?… Have I ever not help anyone who ask me to help them???… What more good must I do?… Sometimes I just feel like not to bother about everyone around me and be selfish but… That’s just not in my nature… I’m just too kind…

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Saturday, June 17th, 2006

Is Sunday, 18th of June 2006… 0818 hours…

Result for the mid-year examination is out… Hm… Well, I should thanx God for my result even though it wasn’t as good as my Penilaian 1… Firstly, I was not prepare at all and second, my mind was on something else during the whole examination… All those writing part… I think I crap more then writing logical answer…

Two more weeks to free myself from my pain and ten more days to work in hell… After that… All those attention… All those complains… All those pile of work… All those burden… And all those disappointment will all go away… Far away from me… And I’ll be just ordinary me… Myself again… No more broken heart…

Well… Today is Father’s Day… It’s once in a year but that doesn’t mean that it’s only today that we appreciate our dad… If we are to have that sort of thinking then you are so wrong… Today is a special day to show our dad how much we appreciate him but never forget about the other days… Honour your father and mother…

I’m not really in the mood to write anything now… I guess I have one more unfinish work to attend now…

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Wednesday, June 7th, 2006

Is Thursday, 8th of June 2006… 0908 hours…

Holiday is soon going to come to an end… Mostly everyone is having fun in this mid-year holiday but not for me… It’s more like that I’m attending school… Just that it’s in my room instead of my classroom… I didn’t expect for a pile of work just sitting there waiting for me… My, that’s a lot…

Let’s see… I’ve just partly finish my Biology project, I’ve finish my speech for the school magazine, finalise the Lower Six Prefects and their post and finish up a poem which I started last month… Hehe… Now, the unfinish work which is still waiting in line are my Bio project, my retirement speech, SCF’s programme for the new comers and revising…

I got… Four more days to finish this pile of work… This Friday is the Cybercross Concert… Well, like I predicted… I won’t be able to go… Something just turn up on that day so I got to go…

This morning… I heard this interesting news over the radio… Do you know someone or are you the someone who just can’t live without your handphone for just a few hours?… Do you sometimes think that you hear your handphone ringing when it’s not?… Well, this symptoms are related to a sickness known as ‘Ringxiety’ (Ring-xi-e-tee)… Seriously, that is the offical name of people who suffer from this… But don’t worry for is harmless… Thank God for that… Oh yeah… That means… I’m suffering from Ringxiety too… Hehe…

The poem which I just completed is quite a long one… I always wanted to compose a poem similiar to Sonnet 18 but I think that I prefer my version better… Much more easier to understand… Hehe…

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BEAUTIFUL AS YOU

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From the moment I first saw you

There was something about you which I just knew

That you were once in a lifetime

A treasure near impossible to find

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Since the day you came into my life

The days before all faded to black and white

From the day we started to talk to each other

You lift my soul to be with you forever

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‘Cause I’ve seen the miracle of snow on Christmas day

The bright colours of the rainbow that could take you breath away

And when it comes to shooting stars I have seen a few

But I’ve never seen anything as beautiful as you

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Holding you tightly in my arms

I can’t believe that you’re still here with me

I just can dance with you forever

As though the music will stop never

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When it comes the time to say goodbye

Please forgive if I can’t let you go

For I have felt the love that you had shown

Because I had never found a Cinderela of my own

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I’ve seen the twinkling stars that belong to the Milky Way

The beauty of the setting sun, on any given day

And when it comes to shooting stars I have seen a few

But I’ve never seen anything as beautiful as you

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My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you

I’ve been running round in circles in my mind

And it always seems that I’m following you

‘Cause you take me to the places that alone I’d never find

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And even as I wander I’m keeping you in sight

You’re a candle in the window on a cold dark winter’s night

You light up my path so that I could see

And help to choose the correct path, wherever I may be

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‘Cause I’ve seen the power of love that bring two souls together

The miracle of a simple smile which will last forever

And when it comes to shooting stars I have seen a few

But I’ve never seen anything as beautiful as you

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I can’t believe that I have you

I can’t believe that you’re still here in my arms

Because I only have a picture of you in my heart

And a vision of you in my arms

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I’ve been waiting for a lifetime for you

And I have dreamed about you

Pictured in my mind who I would see

But I never imagined just how beautiful you’d be

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‘Cause I’ve seen the miracle of snow on Christmas day

The magic of love’s first kiss that could take your breath away

And underneath the rainbow, I know that dreams come true

But I’ve never seen anything as beautiful as you

                                                          (7 / 6 / 2006 ; 10:18 am)

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Saturday, June 3rd, 2006

Is Sunday, 4th of June 2006… 0746 hours…

The interview just ended yesterday with a success… Nearly everybody turned up for the interview including a few from yesterday… My, didn’t they get it from me yesterday… But the problem now is that… I got to throw a few out… For the guys… There are too many of ex-prefects this year… I’m hoping that when school re-open… A few of them will leave… Not to say that I’m bad hearted or what… Is just that… I don’t have enough post for all them… I’ve just make Head Departments to be three people in charge… Seriously… That’s a lot…

I just can’t create new post like that… That will be like so stupid… What if the next Board after these guys consists of lesser ex-prefects… Should they just terminated the extra post just like that?… I don’t know now… It’s really on my head now… The only possible solution that I can think of yesterday is to just hope that some of the ex-prefects will just leave from school… Then that will solve my problem… There’s no point for me to worry about it too much… I’ve just have to wait when school re-open…

For the new girls… There wasn’t much problem at all except that we were waiting for the Klian Pauh Head Prefect to come but she didn’t turn up… So, I plan to find her when school re-opens and ask if she is still interested… It’s really a waste if she don’t give it a try… Seriously, we all felt that she is really potential to be the Head Girl in the school… And seriously… I believe that Gan will train her up much better… If she is still arond in school though…

Hm… To see these people come for the interview is actually quite funny… There were all sorts of them… Aggressive (which I don’t want them at all), Polite (Still depend on their confident) and Scare (some were shaking all over)… Haha…

There was this one ex-prefect guy who was really rude… From the way he sit and speak… I fell like just asking him to get out of the interview room… Luckily for him… Ex-prefects are automatically accepted in, no matter what… Seriously, that fella got attitude problem… Overall, the guys were much calmer than the girls…

There was this girl who I think had a mental block and couldn’t answer some of the question at all… Another girl was shaking all over during the interview… Me and Chen Yip noticed that her hands were trembling that we ask her if she’s ok or not… Haha… But the eye-catching part yesterday was a girl… Who came in the interview room and the first thing that she did was "Kow-Tow" to us and say to all of us "Selamat Pagi dan Salam Sejathera"… Haha… But after she had finish her interview… We all agree to take her in…

Tomorrow I’m going to school… To settle my Bio project and the interview list with Han Boon… And find the correct post for all of them…

Hm… It’s been a while since I last compose my poem… I’m really not that free now… Retirement is near but there’s still a lot of things to be settle before I step down… Maybe one day…

I still haven’t prepare my speech for the school magazine and my retirement speech… Haha…

Oh dear… Time do move fast but luckily… I still manage to revise some of the subjects…

Yesterday was the past… No point worrying about it too much…

Today is the present… Let’s try to make the best out of everything…

Tomorrow is the future… No one can tell me that what will happen tomorrow but what will come, will come… And when it does, I just have to face it…

File # 45

Friday, June 2nd, 2006

Is Friday, 2nd of June 2006… 1606 hours…

I’m so frustrated and so damn tired… But I need to complain so I will complain it all here…

Interview for the lower six prefects is today and hell do this people sucks… Out of 23 candidates… Only half of them turn up… Rubbish… So, I thought of waiting for them and who knows… None of them turn up at all… I waited up to 3:00 and not a single human being show up…

If I see these people tomorrow coming for the interview… Hell, their going to get hell of a lecturing from me… Seriously… I’m damn angry now… They think what?… I’m so desperate to interview them is it?… Their sure going to get it from me tomorrow if they show up… Idiots…

But I pity is Chen Yip, Gan, Boon Soon, Michelle and Saleh who also stayed with me until three… Thanks guys… Really appreciate it…

And now… Tomorrow is another day but… We’ll see…