Detective Saviour’s Files

Is Sunday, 1st of October 2006… 0821 hours…

The beginning of this week was so wrong for me… Since Monday until yesterday… There was always something wrong… But Monday was the worse…

I was been used in a silly dispute in my own club… I became a victim to it that but now everyone thinks that I’m the cause of it… The worse part is… Even some of my friends believe it… That really makes me fell sad… But luckily there is still some of my closest friend who still encourage me to just forget for it cause it will soon die off…

Family problems… It was not really pleasant at all… Don’t wish to talk about it…

Results… Well, it was indeed much better than my mid-year but still far away from my target point…

On Friday… Made the most horrible mistake… I just don’t know what is wrong with me this week?… Everything is going so wrong and the more I try to fix it… The worse it becomes…

But… With my friends encouragements and with God’s help… I manage to pass this week… Though it was the most unpleasant week for me but I believe that nothing bad last forever in this world though the world maybe cruel but I do believe in miracles in this world…

Today… Is the beginning of a new month… A new week… And a new day… If you think that what has happen to me is making feel sorry for myself than you’re so wrong… Because the harder I fall… The more eager am I to get up again… I will make sure that even if I lose… I’ll still put on a good fight…

I’m not going to let all this problems from stopping me accomplish what I had planned before… Never!!!… I had put much effort and thought to my dreams and I’m not going to fall now… Never!!!…

I had say before… I’m not regretting the choice that I made cause I know the good it will bring later on in my life…

So… I don’t care now what others think of me… Think what you want… Say what you want… Lie all about me if that please you but I’m not going to fall… It will just make me feel much more stronger…

I have my faith in God and I know that it’s all in His test… I will not stop moving on…

When you stop believing, life is meaningless…

When you stop dreaming, desires are gone…

When you stop praying, faith will disappear…

When you stop wishing, miracles stop happening…

Is Saturday, 23rd of September 2006… 0828 hours…

What a stressful week is it for me…  Problems out of nowhere is coming staright right at me which has no connection at all with me… I don’t know why is it so?… Maybe there is an invisible tag with the words printed on "Complaint Dept" hanging around me which other people can see but I can’t…Haha…

Yesterday was the Welfare Club farewell party… Erm… To be honest… I was kinda bored there… Chen Yip had to run early so I was so damn bored… Haha… I thought of going home early but then Pn. Kuna asked me to stay to bit more longer… There were a few performances by the Music Club last night…

Hm… Leng Leng, write for you speech but they didn’t call you… I don’t care… Monday when I see you, I will sure collect my service charge from you… Haha…

Last night… I find it to be the longest night that I ever have… I couldn’t really sleep the whole night…Don’t really know why I felt so uneasy last night… Somemore got this idiotic monkey who keep miss calling me the whole freaking entire night… Damn annoying… If I know who is that… You’re so dead… Haha…

Today actually got school but who cares… Haha… Go also no point… All my friends pakat together to ponteng… Hehe… Eh, even our class teacher say that she will support us… Haha… So no need to fear anything…

Oh yeah… I already made my choice that day… I choose to accept it… Yup, I say yes… I hope that I won’t have any regret on this… But it’s kinda strange you know… I feel a lot more relief after I had made up my mind… I guess I shouldn’t worry so much about the consequences but I should focus on how to make the best out of everything… Come what may…

Yesterday I saw the Prefects been install… They’re really so different… Even my year we didn’t install like them… So formal… Haha… Last time we all… Stand at the front of the school when the sun is shining and waited like mad fellas for the stupid VIP to come… Take their baldy sweet time to get there… Somemore got a few mistake that happen that day… Haha… I really salute this year’s board…

Is Tuesday, 19th September 2006… 1855 hours…

Last day of trial exam… It’s finally over… Maths paper 1 was alright… Much more better than Maths 2… Haha… I just hope that my marks in this paper can help improve my overall marks for Maths…

Well… I’m quite relief now that I’ve one burden is off my shoulder… I just want to spend the whole day today doing the things which I love… Since I’m going to get some of my marks tomorrow… Which I don’t wish to know at all… Haha… I might as well enjoy myself today…

I came home around 1:05 pm and had my bath and lunch… Then I play some unfinish computer games for nearly three-and-a-half-hours… Haha… When out afterthat… I though of just taking a stroll around the lake… But then, I don’t know why I ended up running one round the lake… Haha…

It was nearly six o’clock when I stop running… I was so exhausted but that didn’t not stop me from buying an ice-cream… Haha… Cost me two bucks for that… After I’ve finish my ice-cream… I really couldn’t stand anymore… So, I lie down on the ground near the skating ring… And then… I started to think again…

I started with the question which was bothering me before my trial exam… Since I promise to myself that I’ll resolve the problem after the trial exam is over… I guess it was a good time to think about it… With the exception of lying down on the ground though… Haha…

To accept or not to?… To go for it or not to?… To give it a try or not?… To say yes or no?… The question is really simple but the answer is really complicating… Either way I choose… Has its own pros and cons… I really don’t wish to make a choose which I will regret oneday…

What shall I do?… Until now I still can’t get an answer… I guess that I’m afraid to choose… Because no matter which answer I choose… It will change my life… I’m not afraid of changes but I am afraid of what I might change into… Will it benefit me or not?… I don’t know if I should take the risk…

A wrong move which I make might not only affect me but also to my loved ones and friends… I don’t mind taking the pain alone but if it will affect others… Then it will hurt me more… But… I still need to choose… And I have already promise to myself that before this day ends… I will make my choose…

I just pray that God will guide me so that I may choose wisely… I’m kinda lost here now… My mind is really confuse with all the possible answers that’s in my head now… What shall it be?…

Yes or no?………

Is Friday, 15th of September 2006… 1611 hours…

Second week of exam was no fun at all… It was the beginning of a new week and my Maths Paper 2 had to spoilt it for me… I think I’m going to die in that paper… I don’t know what was wrong with me that time… Some question was easy to find the answer but why on earth did I had to make it so complicating?… Haih… Sure die this time…

Now… If I were to survive in my Maths paper… I need to do really well in my paper 1 this Tuesday or if not… I’m so dead…

Yeasterday was Bio and… Haih… The structure part was ok but when I looked at the six essay question… I wanted to cry… Kek sim la… Not even one question that I predicted came out for the essay part… I thought they might ask about the cardiac cycle, regulation of blood glucose level, plant hormone, immunity or hereditary genetics…

None… None at all… The questions that were asked was totally beyond my expextation… Well… I still manage to write but I was not so sure if my answer were acceptable or not?… Objective part was so-so… I actually had 5 more chapters which I haven’t cover yet…

Haih… Is really a frustating week for me… Plus with that Boon Beng who don’t even bother to call and tell me anything about those freaking certs which I sent to them nearly two months ago… If they don’t call me by this week… After the exam is over… I’m going to find them and kill them all…

Hm… I hear that the Prefect Installation is today… It was really about time cause it was nearly two months now I guess since they took over… But… I guess is better late than never… Anyway… Congrats to all new and officially Guardians of the school… Haha… Defenders in Green… Duty well… Haha…

Is Friday, 8th September 2006… 1600 hours…

First week of trial is over… I still got another one week plus to go… Started with PA on Monday… Hm… When I open the paper which was PA 1… The first ten questions was all about ‘Dasar Malaysia"… Crap… I didn’t even focus on that part… PA 2 was alright I guess… The essays was quite ok but I freak out at the graph part…

I did the graph on the ‘carta pai’ but I spend too much time on it… I sort like got stuck when constructing the table… I sort like panic when my result for the second year was not balance… I counted the second time and still it was not balance… I was so scared that time cause I only had another 50 minutes more and I still have a another essay to go…

Luckily on the fouth time… I got it right… Haih… Don’t know what was wrong with me that time… Luckily, I manage to finish up everything and still had 10 minutes remaining…

For Chemistry… Hm… Is it good or bad?… I don’t really know… Started with paper 2 first but it was quite ok… Luckily the questions on the physical part was the chapter which I focus the most one… For the inorganic part… I still manage to write something there but the worst was the organic part… I don’t even know if what I wrote there was acceptable or not?…

Paper 1 was hell… Just when all of us thought that paper 1 could help us a bit but it sort like kill us instead… The answers were so closed and I don’t even know which shall I pick… Some questions I just ‘tembak’ only… Haha… Don’t know if I can get something out of paper 1 but I dare not predict my Chemistry paper…

Next week on Monday is Maths 2… Haih… And on Thursday is Biology… Don’t know if those two papers will be brutal or not?… Hope that I’m well prepare for those two papers by then…

Well… I’m going to skip school during this whole trial week except on the day when my exam is on… That’s right… I skiped school today and I’m going to do that the following week also… Since the teacher say that our attendance will be counted as present for the whole trial week… So, might as well I skip school and study at home… Besides, I can get to sleep longer…

This whole week… My mum never stop nagging me about my hair… Saying that it’s so long… She keeps repeating the same line until I can memorise it now… Haha… And she just said it again to me… "Lu kaki kua lu eh ta mor la… Anay terng liao… Ki kar la… Tan lu peng cha bo balu lu chai…" Haha… I don’t feel that my hair is long at all but nevermind… I’ll be mummy’s good little boy and get myself a haircut tomorrow… Haha…

I’d been doing quite a lot of thinking this week… About my life… And it’s really complicating… But once I can sort out everything in order… I’ll write about my future plans… About what I’m going to do after I had finish studying…

Is Friday, 1st of September 2006… 1540 hours…

Haih… Next week is trial… There’s two papers that I’m sitting next week… PA and Chemmy… Today in school… My PA teacher told us about some new marking scheme that the MPM had just done on PA… Those idiots at the MPM will just do anything just to cut our marks on PA 2…

Especially on the graph part… Writing incomplete title or information… They will ‘potong markah’… That I still can understand but… Why they must even make hell of an issue about the place where we put the origin on the graph?… Those idiots at the MPM say that we must put the ‘0′ above the x-axis… Now what kind of stupid teori is that?…

If we put it below the x-axis… They will minus one mark… Aduh this people… They say that below the x-axis means negatif but why are they so baldy stupid?… ‘0′ is an integer with no baldy positive or negatif sign on it… Its some sort like a border between the positive and negatif region… So, it doesn’t matter if the ‘0′ is below the x-axis for it doesn’t mean that the ‘0′ is a negatif value… Crap this people… Did they learn Maths or not for crying out loud?…

Today my Chemmy teacher also break the bad news to us that everything will be out for the trial… Well, I already expect that but the bad part is in the structure questions… All the three parts in Chemmy will be mix up in the each questions… Now thats not good news at all… We haven’t even enter Inorganic Chemistry and we only partly finish Organic Chemistry… Haih… Don’t really know if I can survive this time?…

Now I need to rush in this four days to try to finish up Organic and Inorganic Chemistry by myself… I don’t even know if that’s possible but I still need to try… Very pressuring now… I think that I need to sleep a bit late these few days just to cover up what I haven’t learn yet… Haih… Maths and Bio is after that… I’ll start on those two again after my Chemmy is over…

When and find Boon Beng on Tuesday to ask about the Welfare Club’s cert but the lady there said that the certs are not ready still… More than one month… And now they tell me that… At least they finish up one of the order which I made… Now I’m waiting for the other one to be done… I hope that they can finish it up faster…

Ok… I think that I hang long enough now… Don’t want to waste my time now… But still… To all my friends… Good luck in your trial exam and let’s hope that we can make it through together… Though the road to success is full with bitterness and hardship but as long you still believe in yourself… You can accomplish any of your dreams… All the best…

Ok… Now I’m going to try to finsh up my Chemmy… Hope that I can finsh it in time and still understand what I had just read… Wish me luck…