Detective Saviour’s Files

It’s Friday, 30th of March 2007… 1500 hours…

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MEMORIES

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It there is one thing

That I will never regret

Is when you made my heart sing

Sweet melodies that I’ll never forget

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The sweet smile that you show

Is inside of me wherever I go

Bringing along the memories that I know

That warm my soul when it was cold

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A dream that’s too good to be true

That takes your mind out of the blue

But fairy tales are just mere fantasy

For memories are all left for me

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Though time can never be turn back

I’ll always cherish the time that we had

And I’ll bless the day that we met

The day that you came into my life.

                              (30th of March 2007; 1:57 pm)

It’s Thursday, 29th of March 2007… 1841 hours…

Cough, cough… Sneeze, sneeze… And temperature rising… Haih… Now these are the common signs that you’re not feeling well and yesterday, all three of these pesky things decided to infect me…

It was so suffering when you’re having a running nose and coughing like nobody business… To make things worse, Mr. Fever had to come along and burn me up… But likely in the evening, I felt slightly better but my flu is still on…

Despite feeling so sick yesterday, I think that I’m beginning to lose my capability in composing poems… Just recently which was on this Tuesday, I sat for the whole day at my desk but I just couldn’t string any words up together…

Maybe I’m not too sure about the topic that I’m working on or maybe it’s because it had been a while since I last compose one which I guess made me clueless now… Anyway, I’m not giving up so easily and I bet that I can compose one hopefully by the end of this week…

By the way, the OGA is having their annual dinner this Saturday and I’m attending of course but I’m still waiting for Han Boon to give me a call to confirm the place for as far as I can remember… It was suppose to be held at the Ong Association but he told me yesterday on the phone that it was in Soon Lee Restaurant…

It’s Monday, 26th of March 2007… 1217 hours…

Well, my sister and her newly-wed husband are in Taiping and so are the in-laws…First, my sister and her husband and of course the in-laws as well came to my house… Here, the three of us (me, my sis and her husband) did a lot of silly and say a lot of stupid stuff together… Haha… And we did took some pictures together… The reception was held in the Seafood Restaurant and seriously speaking, when the fifth dish arrived… I just couldn’t eat anymore…

The same things goes to my cousin, Shane who also couldn’t eat anymore and for Peng Wei… I’m not too sure… Then there was photo session with everyone but I didn’t took any with my phone because I was running out of memory… I really need to get a new phone with an external memory card…

My cousins, Serena and Lilian took most of the photos with their camera phone and Vivien told me that she can use some of the photos for the Moral Project… Now, that sounds like what I did when I was in Form 5… Haha… After that night, we all when home to rest but the next day, we were going down to Penang to visit my Grandmother and some of Vincente (My sis’s husband) friends…

So yesterday, we had our breakfast at Prima Coffeeshop and headed straight to Penang… We reached my grandmother house at around noon like that and we had lunch outside… Then we headed to QuennsBay Mall to meet Vincente’s friends… Speaking about the place, it was as big as Midvalley but I’m not sure if it’s bigger than One Utama…

We meet at the Dome on the second floor and then I did some window shopping from the top of the mall to the parking lots… Haha… There were like usual, varieties of shops to look at but the prices are way too expensive for me… There was this gift shop that really caught my attention…

Now, instead of using wrapping flowers like the usual way… They use mini teddy bears which I find it very cute… Especially if it’s in a bunch… Like a bunch of flowers but this’ll be a bunch of teddy bears… Haha… But I didn’t get to look at the price because my sis call me and say that it’s time to hit the road…

But  I have to admit that if I ever do traveling… I need to take an afternoon nape or else I’ll feel really sleepy in the car… Now, what do you think will happen if I was driving and was feeling sleepy at 3 o’clock in the afternoon?…

Before we came back to Taiping, we stopped at my grandmother’s house for a while and then we head back home… We reach around eight like that and ate a light dinner because I was still really full… After that, we sent my parents home and Vincente’s parents back to the hotel… And the three of us went out just to hang around…

Came back at ten like that, watch some late shows and went to bed…

This morning, we went for breakfast and roam around Taiping until to the foot of Maxwell Hill… I guess they must be heading back to Kl now…

Haih… Have you ever had that feeling where you feel that you’re missing something?… Since yesterday, I just can’t shake this feeling off from me… To be honest, I don’t even what am I missing but I just know that I’ll occasionally have this feeling…

Now, what on earth am I missing?… And I keep checking my wallet and phone hoping that it will solve the problem but… Haih… I dont know?…

It’s Thursday, 22th of March 2007… 1135 hours…

One week ago, my STPM result was out and exactly one week later… I’ve just submit in my application to the local universities… Now, I’ll just leave it in God’s hand for the result… I do hope for the best but no matter what’s the outcome… I’m prepare for it…

There was eight choices for me to fill in and for the first two choices… I choose Sains Forensik from USM and UKM which I hope to get… My third choice was Patologi Pertuturan in USM… It’s quite interesting you know… My fourth choice was Dietetik which also in USM… My fifth was Sains Laut in UKM which my brother told me was quite an interesting course… My sixth, seventh and eighth is Bioperubatan in USM, Genetik in UKM and Bioteknologi in USM respectively…

I guess you must be wondering why did I only choose USM and UKM out of so many universities in Malaysia… Well, it’s not that I don’t want to choose the other universities… It’s just that the requirement in the other universities are beyond my grades… :(  I was not near their minimum requirement… Sabah and Sarawak universities?… I’m not so interested in the courses that is offer there…

My brother said to me on the phone the other day that I should fight for the courses that I want… So that’s why I put eight choices in this sort of arrangement… He said that what I’m most interested in should listed it on the top hoping that it would be like telling ‘them’ that, "Hey, I’m interested in these courses so please give me a chance"… But, if things don’t work out the way I want it to be… Then, I won’t regret because at least I’ll know that I put up a strategic way of asking the courses that I want rather than filling in the blanks for the sack of just filling it in…

The reply will be around the month of May or June like that… Until then, I’ll just occupied myself with helping my mum tracing and cutting gingerbread men and women, rabbits, butterflies, hearts, pumpkins, dinosaurs, etc… Seems dull but it’s fun…

My sister and her newly-wed husband will be coming to Taiping this Saturday… Of course following along is no other than the mother-in-law and father-in-law… The recipient will be held in Soon Lee Restaurant but it won’t be a grand one… Just a simple recipient with just close relatives attending… So, at least I won’t be so bore this weekend…

Oh yea… I’ve just activated my MSN again but it did took me a while… So, my contacts are all blank and I need to start again… But if you want to add or chat… Please feel free to… Mine is saviour_sc@yahoo.com

Hm… It’s almost three months since I last compose any poems… I don’t know, it just seems that nothing inspires me to compose anything… But I do hope to compose one soon…

Well, to all my friends who had sent your application… I wish you the best of luck and to those who still haven’t do so… I hope that you’ll choose wisely and apply soon because as far as I know… The deadline is now postponed to next Wednesday… Anyway, Good Luck…

It’s Sunday, 18th of March 2007… 1028 hours…

I’m getting real feed-up with the Internet connection… It took me about a week before I’m able to connect to the Internet and it was a real waste of time sitting in front of the computer waiting for the connection to be establish…

Since now that I’m able to get in… I better do what I want to do before I’m disconnected again…

Well, I’d taken my STPM result and I was quite surprise with myself because I did not expect to get an A- for my PA, a B- for my Biology and Mathematics T, and a C for my Chemistry… I was really blur when I open up my slip because I was expecting to see more C’s than B’s but never expected to score an A-…

But I was really happy with my result… It was like a miracle and I still don’t believe it… I really thank God for this… Now that this is over, I have another thing to worry about… Applying into the local universities and I’m quite afraid that I might not be getting the course that I want…

My brother said the other day to me on the phone that it all depends on how I place my selections of courses correctly according to my grades… It’s a game of arranging the combinations of courses correctly or you will be facing a big problem when you are given a course which you’re not interested in…

I really hope that I’ll be able to go to UKM and be able to take up Forensic Science but if I can’t go there than the other university that offer this course is USM but the problem is that the university hospital is in Kelantan… Now why on earth did this people place the hospital there?… Unlike UKM, their hospital is in KL which I’ll be happy to be there than Kelantan…

But, it’s not I who have the final say of the decision… It’s more like depending on my luck now which I hope that Lady Luck is with me… But worse to worse, if I don’t get the course I want, at least give me the course out from my other selections… At least I won’t be so reluctant with the outcome…

Tomorrow I’ll be going to school to ask my teachers for their advice on the courses which I had already listed down… I’m not sure with some of the courses but by the name of it… I guess it sounds interesting… But let’s see if the teachers explanation is interesting as I thought it would be…

I hope that my Biology teacher, Pn. Chan is around tomorrow… Only she’s the one who can explain in detail about the courses…

I’ll be trying to get as much information as I can for these few days to come before I submit my application… I hope that the information that I can get are valuable to me… It’s more like gambling now I guess… Either I get in or I don’t… But I prefer the former…

It’s Saturday, 10th of March 2007… 1700 hours…

Sometimes, when you have a lot of things to say but just don’t know where to start… You tend to just forget the whole thing… That’s what I’m feeling now… I really don’t know what to start with?…

My result will be out next Thursday and please stop asking me what do I think that I will get… The thought of it is enough to give me nightmares… I’ll just leave it and accept what will come… Good or bad, I’m already prepare for the worse…

So much for Canteen Day… It was the most horrible Canteen Day that I had ever been too… I hate to admit it but it was really a waste of time going there… First, there was not a lot of variety of stalls because some classes did not bother to sell anything and by the time it was noon… Most of the stalls were out of stock… It was really a poor organization…

Another bad thing is that my legs are killing me… I can’t hardly walk or stand properly since I got back… My legs are so red that it looks like two big bright red apples with toenails on it…

Tonight, I’m going out with some of my friends for Karaoke but I don’t know why I have no mood to sing like that… I hope that by tonight I can find "it" back… Maybe it’s because I’m sort of disappointed with what had happened to me recently…

Sometimes the problem with me is that I like to keep every single problem to myself and think that maybe later I can figure it out someway or another… But what I really hate is to be disappointed… I hate to be given high hopes or false promises and later had it robbed away from you…

Finding the right person to talk about this is something which I fail to do… But the fact is that I always tell others that they can find me if they need a friend to talk too but in reality… I fail in practicing the advice that I use to give others… I guess I’m really a hypocrite…

I always think that I know what I am doing but by the end of the day… I can’t explain my actions at all… What’s the point of acting strong when you can’t hold on anymore?… This morning, I re-read "Who Moved My Cheese" hoping that it would inspire me… It did as usually and when I had finished reading it… I wonder the ‘cheese’ that I won’t change is my attitude?…

Have I been avoiding from changing my attitude to be a more understanding and open-minded person?… Or maybe it’s just my ego… Or am I afraid of change?…

"What will you do if you were not afraid"… This is something which I wonder to myself… If I had just done it and stop been afraid… Will it be better?…

Life moves on so move with the ‘cheese’… The quicker you let go of the old ‘cheese’, the sooner you will find new ‘cheese’…

Well… Whenever I feel that I have lost myself… After I had express it all out here… I somehow feel much better… Well, maybe I did found my ‘friend’ here…

But, what do we need to let go of, and what do we need to move on to?…