Detective Saviour’s Files

It’s Thursday, 20th December 2007… 1413 hours…

The Christian Fellowship held an event to celebrate Christmas last Monday, Christmas Night 2007. And it was because of that I skip one week of my holiday to come back and help out in the preparation and also to prepare my script.

I was one of the emcee that night and also participate in the choir. Well, it was indeed a success. Not to us but to God. For that night was to spread the gospel of the good news that we as Christian are to tell to the world.

Receiving the gift of gifts. That Jesus Christ was the gift and within this gift lies additionally other gifts. The forgiveness of sins, a place with our Heavenly Father in heaven, receiving the Holy Spirit. This is what the real meaning of Christmas is all about.

Before coming back here, I had this uncertainty in my heart but now I feel so much comfort like I never felt before. I feel so peaceful and happy in my heart. I never experience  anything like this before and I’m glad that it happen to me now.

For now, I realise that there so much to do rather than grieving about your loss. I thank my Heavenly Father for giving me this peace, I also thank Jesus that He died for my sins, and also I thank the Holy Spirit for granting me the gifts which makes my soul so complete.

A lot of my friends back here said that I really change after this holiday and I had to agree with them for I also felt the change within me. And because of that, I will share this feeling with all my friends. Telling them the feeling of joy you will receive when you give God take full control of your life.

We’re having a small Christmas celebration this Christmas day. Especially for those who are staying back here for this Christmas instead of going back to celebrate with our family. But I want something more than just celebrating, I want do some sharing with them about how my life change in this one month.

I’m also joining the Chinese New Year Sketch as a minister but my role isn’t that big. Except for the banquet part where I need to be on stage for 40 minutes. The good thing is that I’ll be eating during that time. Real food. Hm… Now that’s an offer you can’t refuse. Haha…

Need to study this 3 days holiday that I have but instead I’m online now. That’s the problem when you have a temptation. Haha… Now to log off and study.

It’s Sunday, 9th December 2007… 2053 hours…

I’ll be going back to Kelantan tomorrow. A bit earlier than my schedule where I’m suppose to be back before the 16th of this month before the second semester commence. But I have some things that I need to see to.

It may sounds like I’m quite busy but the fact is, I just indulge myself in all the work I can find to occupy my mind so at least I won’t be feeling so worry or troubled. I enjoy the time at home but I realise that I still need to go back.

It may feels a bit awkward now but I can’t blame anyone for I myself will react the same way. I just hope that it won’t last long for there is one thing which I hate is to indulge myself in a situation or problem and thinking it over and over again. That’s my biggest weak point.

I came back with two bags and now I’ll be going back four bags. The two bags still remains my own stuff and the other two is full with foods. If you have parents like mine, you’ll understand why. It’s quite troublesome but I’m just too lazy to argue with them. As long it makes them happy, I’ll just have to go along.

I’m bringing my printer along because I just can’t stand paying the price every time I need to print something from the PPSK Computer Lab. Besides, it’s quite far to walk to.

I just wonder how will this second semester be? By the way, I pass my first semester examination and I was really happy with that.

For this coming semester, I just hope that any mistake which I made previously will be redeem and any broken bonds will be attached again. I just want things to be alright again.

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Dear Lord, be merciful to me;

My sin has grieved Your heart;

And grant to me Your strength anew

To make a fresh, new start.

It’s Tuesday, 4th December 2007… 1905 hours…

I have accidentally heard from a friend of mine that he have some friends who he consider them as a part of his family. When I heard that my name was not mentioned at all, I felt quite sad because I believe that I had helped him more than anyone he had ever known.

I begin to feel what is it that they had done until this friend of mine consider them as part of his family and had totally forgotten about me? Didn’t I offer my help even though you didn’t ask for it?

I just don’t understand? But somehow, I didn’t lose my mind nor did I feel depress. Before I had the chance to think throughout what has gone wrong in this relationship, I remember the topic for today’s Our Daily Bread.

It was about loving one another uncondtionally like how Jesus did when He died on the cross for our sins. I read the topic over and over again and each time I read it, I begin to understand the real meaning of loving unconditionally.

In 1 John 3:18, John talked about what are we to do when we see others in need. He told us to have active compassion: "Let us not love in word or in tongue, but in deed." When we see a need, it’s good to talk about it, but we must also do something about it. We are instructed: "Be doers of the Word, and not hearers only" (James 1:22)

Helping or loving someone has to be from the heart and spirit that the Lord has given to each of us. Expect nothing in return except for the joyful smile that you will see in the person’s face that you had helped.

Maybe this is something that really had made me change my perspective on giving and taking.  I shouldn’t always expect for something in return when I do a good deed. Love in deed is love indeed. Compassion is love in action.

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Lord, when I learn that someone is hurting,

Help me know what to do and to say;

Speak to my heart and give me compassion,

Let Your great love flow through me today.

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