Detective Saviour’s Files

It’s Saturday, 10th of May 2008… 219 hours…

I’ll be on my way tomorrow morning for a three long weeks camp in Cameron Highland, organize by FES (Fellowship of Evangelical Students) . Cost me RM 300 but I believe it will worth every single cent.

Tomorrow I’ll be heading down to Ipoh first to meet with the rest of my friends who are also following me to this camp. I’ll stay a night in my friend’s house and leave the next day by bus to Cameron Highland.

Three long weeks. Sounds long but as time pass by, three weeks will be like three days. I had to sacrifice my personal practical work in the kindergarten for two weeks. But what makes me a bit reluctant from attending this camp is the children.

You know what’s the biggest problem when you get too attach to children? Is hard for you to separate yourself from them. I really find myself like their elder brother. Each one of them have their own story to tell.

Some of them are from rich families where whatever they want is granted to them while others are from broken up families which some of their stories really makes me feel sorry for them.

Some even have both of their parents in prison. Some are staying with single parent but lack of love. There was this one case where this parent was angry with her child that she took a bottle and threw at her child. Luckily the child was not blind but was seriously bruised.

In the world we’re living now, why do this still happen? I know this girl who seldom speaks to anyone even during lesson time. I had try all ways to start a conversation with her but I only manage to start a yes or no response which she only nods her head.

Sometimes, I just wonder how can I help her? There’re some who get along well with me but I’m more concern on those who doesn’t speak or isolate themselves. I’m really worry for these children but I know that the much I can do for them is to let them know that there is someone there who is concern for them when their are in school.

Whatever happens in their home. I just can’t help it. All I can do is pray for them. But I know that I can never do enough for there is so much to be done. So I must react wisely in the situation or else I’ll fail to be a reliable clinician.

I’ll only see them again in the second week of June. Until them, I just pray that things won’t go from bad to worse. Is really sad thing to know that these children are the victims of their parents’ attitude and fault.

Since the past two days, I fall sick with fever, sort throat, and flu. Three at one go. I felt like half dead when it happens. All I wanted to do was sleep and thank God that night I manage to sweat as much I could and the fever subside the next day but my cough and flu is still on. Hope that it will soon be cure.

"Give me life in Thy ways" is the theme for this year camp. By the theme, I believe something awaits me in this camp. I’m not sure of it yet but I’ll soon find out. So, I’ll post again after three weeks from now.

Since tomorrow is Mother’s Day. Happy Mother’s Day Mum… Love you so much…

It’s Sunday, 4th of May 2008… 2938 hours…

It had been one week since I started my so-called project on gaining and exposing myself to children’s language development. And where else will I find it more suitable other than my mum’s working place. So, I’m back there in the kindergarten again, helping around.

It was quite fun to be back there. I didn’t really expect for some of the students there to remember me but it really lifted my heart when I see them smiling and waving at me. Some even came to me and wanted to sit on my lap.

To see their smiles, really soothes a bit my troubled heart and mind for as I look at them; smiling, running, and playing. They’re really enjoying themselves. I’ll be going to the kindergarten until the end of June.

But it seems that since last week, whenever I enter another different class. There will be someone crying. You know how children can be sometimes. Rough and naughty. It’s amazing of the things that these children know things where I don’t even know when I was at their age.

While helping out in the classroom, I’ll also did my own clinical observation on the children to brush up my clinical skills. But at times, I tend to forget why am I there when I’m having too much fun with them.

At times when I need to be strict and raise my voice to control the class. These children are not afraid of me at all. But it was different when my mum or the other teachers try to control them. I sometimes wonder where did I went wrong there?

So far, I only did my observation on 4 and 5 years old children. Starting tomorrow, I’ll be doing on the 6 years old and then I’ll start the whole process again but I’ll be focusing on specific children to have myself a comparison with the theories I had learn in my course.

Camp Cameron is this coming Monday and I’m quite excited about it. I really wonder what God want to do with me for these three weeks? I bet it will great and I know I’ll sure have a good time there with the Bible studies and fellowships with other Christians.

Yesterday I was out with some of my friends and some of us really change in our appearance but those crazy character that we once had in our Form Six days still was preserved until now. Though we seldom meet up but whenever we do, it really reminds a lot of the things that we all use to do in school. I really miss those time.

My beads are almost complete. I have already finish up my key-chain with its handle as a love shape and another as a circle shape. I’m planning to make a bone after this. And then maybe I’ll concentrate on one type and start slowly doing it as this year’s Christmas present.

I have already finish reading up the book on becoming a Healthy Youth Minister. I really learn a lot from it but I think that I’ll go through it again to have a better and clearer understanding and clarification on some areas.

I was thinking to myself the other day about what my minister is suppose to focus on in the campus. There are five minister in my CF which are the Praise & Worship, Prayer, Cell Groups, Fellowship, and  Outreach.

Going through what I had read and with reference to the CF purpose statement. The five key points in the CF purpose statement are Touch, Bonding, Growing, Serve, and Glorify. The five external purposes that you can find from the Great Commandment and the Great Commission are Worship, Ministry, Evangelism, Fellowship, and Discipleship.

Through this five external purposes is how the purpose statement is formed. Glorify came from Worship, Serve came from Ministry, Touch came from Evangelism, Bonding came from Fellowship, and Grow came from Discipleship.

Having reconsider this, I started to think about the ministries which was form in the CF. I believe that it was there to help accomplish these five purposes. So, I took a walk on one evening and started thinking how it was related.

After much praying to God and a bit of thinking. I figure which purposes in the CF purpose statement fits in the CF ministries. Touch is for Outreach, Bonding is for Fellowship, Growing is for Cell Groups, Serve is for Prayer, and Glorify is for Praise & Worship. I also did some reference with the book I was reading.

Now I come to another part of the question, if my ministry is under SERVE which comes under as ”Ministry” in one of the five external purposes which means, ”Love your neighbour as yourself”. I’m still wondering what am I to do in the next coming academic year.

But I believe God will sure tell me what He wants me to do in the coming academic year for Him. Probably He’ll tell through this camp I’ll be attending. It’s hard to say. He knows when the time is right. I’ll just keep on praying and search for the answer and by His will, He’ll let me know the answer.